You know, before starting a new job, meeting someone new,
or when you have a big decision to make in general; we often ask people for
advice. We ask the questions that deep down we already know the answer to
before finally making the decision. Women in general have what I like to call the
superpower of intuition. It’s a gift
given to us by none other than our creator himself. I’ve always felt
like God
favored women so much, it was his special gift.
The dictionary
defines intuition as the ability to understand something immediately, without
the need of conscious reasoning. Many times when you’re faced with situations
where you’re not sure where to turn or what to do; the reality is you have all
the equipment needed to figure things out, you just have to tap into them. After
reflecting on my last post, I decided to tap into my intuition superpower again
when it came to a certain someone. I recently met a pretty decent guy. Very intellectual,
great career, no children, and just an all around good man. We spoke frequently
for the last month or so and I started to think that maybe eventually it would
lead somewhere.
However, my initial
reaction to having met someone so perfect, was that it was all too good to be true.
My intuition was practically screaming at me but I chose to ignore it. I
ignored it because even though I’ve been through so much hurt and pain in relationships,
I began to think that I’ve got to start somewhere with someone if I wanted to
find my happiness. I ignored it because he was charming, I ignored it because
he said all the right things, I ignored it because I wasn’t going to be that
girl anymore, who thought everyone was out to hurt her. No sis, I’m here to tell
you, NEVER IGNORE it. At night, my mind wanders. It’s very common for me to sit
up until 2 or 3’oclock just thinking. Well, last night was one of those nights.
I sat down and there that intuition was screaming at me again. I decided to take
my PI skills to the next level, and there it was. Everything that I could ever want
to know about this person was sitting on the screen in front of me and I
couldn’t believe it. There’s always something about confirmation that gets to
you.
Anger, rage and disappointment
covered me all at once. I wanted to scream. I felt my body temperature rising
and needed to get myself together. I remember a few weeks ago I came across a
sermon by Bishop TD Jakes about “guarding your heart.” Last Sunday in church,
the pastor spoke about the same thing. I knew at that point that, that was the
message God was trying to speak into my life. Who cares that he was just a
friend. I was entertaining someone and something I felt could lead to more. I
wanted to know why, I wanted an apology and I wanted to frankly fight this man
yall, but for what? If I allowed him to get me that upset then that meant he
had control over me and I wasn’t going to let that happen. I’m a very emotional
person and I wear my heart on my sleeve. What you see is what you get. I said a
little prayer and left it at that. Sis, your intuition is a powerful thing.
Listen to it. Don’t become so consumed with trying to prove something or someone wrong that you
ignore it. It’s there for a reason.
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