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I'm Not Ready

We’ve all had our heart broken at some point or another. It’s life and sometimes people just suck. I’ve had my fair share of heart break and it’s just something I don’t want to endure again. Like who has time and energy to invest in people repeatedly? Not me! It’s just a gamble I’m not willing to take. After speaking with a friend last week, I concluded I actually don’t want a relationship, I want the help.

When I think of being in a relationship my stomach hurts. I like having my own space, I get annoyed with people easily, Bentley and I have our own routine and to add a third person to that would be chaotic. I’ve been in a few relationships and guess what…I’m single now. I actually get upset with myself when I look back on the people I’ve allowed in my life and the time I’ve wasted. It’s frustrating. My last relationship ended for financial reasons right before I found out he was expecting twins with someone else. That was a major blow for me. All I ever asked was for honesty, time…

Let the Good Times Roll

Hey Boo. This last week has been a complete blur. My birthday was amazing! I enjoyed watching my son play his first baseball game of the season, we had a quick dinner at his favorite Chinese restaurant, and I indulged in an amazing bottle of red wine my good friend Allie brought me to celebrate.
I recently decided to compete in the Miss Plus Size Charleston 2019 pageant, so I had my first meeting for that last week as well. To top everything off, I leave for Vegas in the morning to really kick off Level 28! It’s been a busy few weeks to say the least,but I’m so ready for some relaxation. Of course, I wait to the last minute to pack. Well, I packed but my bag was too heavy and now I have to pack again. I mean a girl need options, right? On the inside I’m a nervous wreck. I have so many moving pieces in my life right now, it’s a little hard to keep up with at times. I’ve been wanting to start my modeling career, I’ve enrolled back in school, keeping up with my blog and resume writing …

Suit Up

April 18th where are you? This queen was born April 10th and for the first time ever I told my girlfriends I wanted to take a trip to Vegas to celebrate. They love me a ton so they all agreed. I think my body is sensing it’s almost vacation time because lately I’ve found myself more irritable that ever. I feel horrible for saying this but even my precious son is aggravating the crap out of me! He calls my name to tell me he’s thirsty when he knows where the kitchen is. I believe he just says mama for the hell of it.
It all started last week when I rushed home to get my new bathing suit from the mail. It took forever but whatever I was super excited to try it on. I think I was more anxious to see if it actually fit more than anything. My weight has been all over the place lately and my waistline has definitely grown the last few months. Ugh…I can never maintain my weight which is so frustrating. Like who the hell can lose thirty pounds in two weeks before vacation? Oh well. It is what …