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Free Myself

Think…think…think…. I’m always thinking. My mind is always pondering my next move. How will I pay for this? That bill is gonna be late. What date was that function? When should I have her resume ready? What day is Bentley’s game again? All these thoughts are bouncing around in my head simultaneously. At times I just want to hold my head and scream QUIEETTTT like they do in the movies.

For those that don’t know, my 9-5 job is a career advisor at a local vocational school, I write resumes on the side for passive income, my son is active in every sport there is, I start a bachelors program within a month, I’m running in a pageant and I’m always on the go. I’m a strong believer that rest is for rich people. I’m willing to work overtime to get where I want to be in life but, sometimes it takes it’s toll on me.

With so much going on, a lot has happened to me physically and emotionally. I’ve gained an unmentionable amount of weight, my anxiety has kicked in so I’m shorter tempered than usual…

You're So Strong

Hey guys! It’s been a minute since I sat down to put my thoughts on paper. I feel like there’s so many moving parts to life right now, and I’m doing my best to keep up. My mind is on overload. On a positive note, I’m feeling much better this week than I did last week. Last week I was a complete mess. I was so stressed out. I’m sure I sat in traffic and cried a few times.


I’ve been told “You’re one of the strongest people I know” for a very long time, by so many people. I agree with them on most occasions. I feel when people label me this way, it prevents me from being able to show them anything other than my strong self in the future. Since so many people view me in that light, it creates a large group of people in my mind that I can’t show raw emotion in front of. I feel I can’t go to these people with my problems because they’re going to view me as weak. This in return  creates situations where I’m crying at stop lights because I’m stressed and don’t want to appear weak in front of a…