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Think…think…think…. I’m always thinking. My mind is always pondering my next move. How will I pay for this? That bill is gonna be late. What date was that function? When should I have her resume ready? What day is Bentley’s game again? All these thoughts are bouncing around in my head simultaneously. At times I just want to hold my head and scream QUIEETTTT like they do in the movies.

For those that don’t know, my 9-5 job is  a career advisor at a local vocational school, I write resumes on the side for passive income,  my son is active in every sport there is, I start a bachelors program within a month, I’m running in a pageant and  I’m always on the go. I’m a strong believer that rest is for rich people. I’m willing to work overtime to get where I want to be in life but, sometimes it takes it’s toll on me.

With so much going on, a lot has happened to me physically and emotionally. I’ve gained an unmentionable amount of weight, my anxiety has kicked in so I’m shorter tempered than usual, and I’m doing a lot of self-sabotage.  I really thought those days were over. I’m ready to free myself, free myself of unhealthy relationships, unhealthy people, unhealthy food, unhealthy thoughts and unhealthy habits in general. I’ve got to get refocused and I’m only allowing supportive people on this journey with me. For so long I’ve catered to the needs of other people and other people’s bull cap that meant me no good and it’s time for a shift. I’m going to get my genuine smile back! I’m going to focus on Breezy. One day at a time.

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